Friday, May 23, 2008

Sorry it took me so long....

So sorry it took me so long to get back to post. I was having major anxiety attacks yesterday morning before going for my eye op. Took a few minutes to do some deep breathing exercises, or as I call it...hyperventilate while frantically looking for my anxiety meds! Whatever. I talked Holly into coming with me. She was a good kid and came. She seemed more scared than I was. It turned out it wasn't as painful as it was last week, so that was a relief. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers. It worked.
Bambi and I have had a couple of (one in particular) really good conversations about the state of our mental health these days. She's going through big changes in her life right now and I'm just my usual basketcase. One thing about Bambi and I is, we really 'get' each other. We know each other through and through. You don't find a friend like that every day and you're lucky to find one really true friend in your life. We used to say we were started in the same petrie dish and then separated at birth. I still believe that! Our deepest conversations usually consist of each of us talking over each other about our problems, while still being able to really hear each other and help each other. It may sound like we aren't listening to each other, but we really are! We also seem to have a constant stream of mental telepathy going between us that only true sisters could. Like twins. If we are together, we both notice the same things going on around us and we only have to look at each other to 'point it out.' Best of all, our friendship has the wonderful addition of both our faiths, which are exactly the same, which means that we both come from the same direction in every way. The root of our faith puts us both on the same level playing field. The ground beneath us is strong, even though neither of us feel very strong right now. How we didn't talk for so long, I now don't know. I have missed her so much, but I will never miss her again! I'm never going to let her go missing from my life again and she's stuck with me until I die. Sorry Bambi, but I love you dearly and you're all mine again. I'm going to love you and kiss you and call you 'Bambi.' Together we'll laugh our way through this life. We'll especially laugh at the most inappropriate times and nobody else will 'get' us and we won't care. Because we know and love each other, nothing else will matter when we talk. We'll even cry and laugh at the same time, cause that's how we roll...
Hold on tight to your best friends, kids...they make life so much better.
You may now officially call me 'Ghandi.'

One more thing, good thoughts please for Forsythia who is having a procedure at the dentist at 12 p.m. today. Thanks all.
Take care

8 comments:

forsythia said...

You're right about painless dentistry nowadays. The dentist looked like a crazed elf, so that helped. Glad your procedure went easier this week.

Cheryl said...

It's been so long since I've had a best friend that felt like a soulmate. I knew how lucky I was to have her...she passed away 20 years ago. You and your friend are so lucky to have each other!

forsythia said...

Thank you for asking folks to think "good thoughts" for me at the dentist. It's now Monday, and I'm OK and thrilled that it's over with. If you want to read something silly about a lifetime of dental trouble, go to my "Deliver Us from Meadville" blog and read "Dr Turnip."

Tory said...

Hi Forsythia. So glad you're ok. I will definately look up Dr. Turnip on your blog.
Cheryl. Keep looking. you never know where your next friend will show up. Keep your eyes and heart open. And I'm so sorry that you lost your friend 20 years ago. That's something you'll probably never get over, but it doesn't have to be a once in a lifetime thing.
Take care
Tory

Nancy said...

Friends are definitely treasures. I hope all is well with you. Sorry I have been out of pocket myself. Getting used to this job thing. LOL

Tory said...

Nancy, how's it going? It won't be long until you're accustomed to it all and it will be second nature.
Thanks for coming by, I know you're busy.
Hugs
Tory

Holly said...

hahaha you and Bambi are lesbians.... does NAI hubby know about this affair..... See... wasn't it better when I didn't read your blogs?

Tory said...

Lesbians????? Well, could be, but without the sex thing. You're a brat and you will start rumours about your old bat of a mother.
But I love you anyway.
Love Mommy xoxo